Way too long
So, I just realized that my last post was something like.... 5 months ago and so I decided it might be time to update.
It's 10th week at Rose meaning it's the week after Hell week and the week before death. I made it through last week and have a "minimal" amount of homework due this week. Unfortunately, I need to study for my two finals next week, EEE II and Thermo II. I don't think either will be terribly difficult but they will certainly be intense. Wish me luck.
On another note, I noticed that the entire front page of my recent posts was very depressing, I decided that needed to be changed.
My parents moved into their new house in Lawrenceburg and I get to go see it for the first time next week. Well, the first time since it's completely finished. I'm excited for Thanksgiving, to see my friends, but it's certainly going to be difficult without Jim.
Anyway, things are going well other than that (at least I think).
I'll try to post more later but House is on and I'm certainly not going to miss that!
Summers
I constantly find myself wishing my life away. Living in Terre Haute for school, but spending my breaks (including the summer) in Cincinnati, constantly has me feeling like I have two lives. When I'm in TH I miss my friends and family back home, especially after Jim died, but when I'm at home I find that I miss my friends in the Haute. The only problem with missing TH is that in order to see my friends there it means I have to return to classes. It's been what... a week and a half since school let out? I guess it seems like a lot longer than that. No matter what though, I feel like I'm always counting down to something and almost wishing away the time I have right now.
I don't know how I made it through last summer but this one is going to be even harder.
That's the thing about relationships, sometimes they look better from the outside.
*screams*
It's pretty bad when the feelings towards your boyfriend consists of "go to hell" and "fuck off".
Breaking Benjamin:
" Living is hard enough
Without you fucking up."
Oh yeah, and I'm getting sick.
Forgot to mention that earlier.
Break
So, I'm on spring break right now, not too much of a break though.
TH... Cincinnati... Wisconsin... Cincinnati... TH... lots of driving.
Anyway,
I'm at Zach's dad's house at the moment, watching the Nanny (I can't find the remote).
I wish I could say that I was having more fun over break, that's not to say that I'm not having fun, I just wish that I was having more relax time. But by now you must know me, I don't tend to write in here unless something is bothering me...
I don't feel comfortable here. It's not that I don't like Zach's family, I do (even if I question how they think about me). It's more that there is history in this house that I am not comfortable with. Believe me, if I could get by without thinking about it I would, but it's not that easy. For that reason, I can't wait to leave here. I wish that I could let history stay in the past but it still affects me. Depending on my mood it even disturbs me.
I feel weird sleeping here, kissing Zach here, being here.
Test Results
When it comes to sex and relationships you put 100% into both. You like to have fun and try new things but you pay a lot of attention to the PASSION that lives in side of each kiss, touch or meaningful word. You contain the whole package and any man would be would be very lucky to have a women like you!
