SoakingIn

Frustration

I spent a good amount of time yesterday doing those stupid journal entries and ended up not posting a single one of them. They're the ones where you're given a list of 100 things and you bold the ones that are true about you, or you answer completely pointless questions. While those surveys may give some kind of insight into the mind of Anne, and give pertinent information, I still find them completely useless. Some of the questions are appropriate, but others... such as "which do you prefer, adidas or nike?" are so trivial and won't actually give insight into my mind.

The real purpose of this post was not to talk about the several hours I wasted yesterday answering meaningless questions.

Why is it that people feel everyone else's business must also be theirs. I understand by having this blog I allow anyone with access to the internet to read my personal feelings (most of which I tend to leave out for that exact reason). While I allow people to read this, and while I tell people things beyond the journal entries, that does not mean I am giving people permission to meddle in my life. I do not want people to tell me how to live my life. I have done that, lived by following others, I won't do it again. I don't want people to tell me why I made the decisions I made. They are my decisions, no one elses, and obviously I know why I made them. I realize people are going to think what they want about me and about things I have done, but unless I ask for an opinion, I don't need to be told one. As arrogant as it sounds for me to say, it's my life. And as even more arrogant it sounds for me to say, people need to know their place. I fail to see how my decisions are affecting people who I no longer speak to. I let people into my life who I truly care about. Those are the people I tell things to, the people I trust, the people's who's opinions matter to me, but my opinion matters most.

An addition to the post: Recently I was listening to a song by Panic! At the Disco and this line came up that I liked, "I've got more wit, a better kiss, a hotter touch, a better fuck", don't ask me why I like it, it just stuck out to me. So being hyper I was talking to Ashlee and said I was going to make it my away message, and it ended up being that I should make it my profile, so I did, not thinking anything about it, there's nothing to be thought. I'm not saying that's about me, or anyone else for that matter, just that I liked the line. Well, apparently there are people who don't like it. Now these people don't mention anything to me, they don't ask me questions, no... they fucking make assumptions. Because that is my profile, these people (mind you I don't know who they are) have decided that I am a bitch. Well whoever you are, if you fucking care about me you can ask me and not make fucking asumptions and make me into the person you want me to be so you can have an excuse to fucking hate me!

posted by Anne @ 3:43 PM