SoakingIn

Noticing A Trend

Am I really that horrible of a person?

Do people really think that my words and actions are, even subconsciously, an active attempt to harm them?

And if this is true then why do people put up with me?

I am trying to work here but overcomig my past indiscretions is not easy in the slightest bit. I do and say things to clarify myself beyond what I have ever done before. I work hard not to be upset and to be completely honest when I am about what happened to get me that way. It honestly hurts that even a part of people thinks that my words and actions are a direct attempt to hurt them.

I thought I was a people pleaser. Apparently that doesn't hold true for the people that I love.

So if any of this is true, which I hope and pray that it isn't, what do I do next. If I'm only going to hurt the people that I love should I not be able to love anymore?

Maybe it all just comes back to the saying that, "love is pain."

posted by Anne @ 5:10 PM