SoakingIn

Thought

It's extremely hard to look into someone's eyes and realize that the depth of feelings you possess for them are not equally returned.

posted by Anne @ 3:14 AM 0 comments

Leaving

Here I sit, at my desk in Blum 402 (the slut room) for the last time. Most of my stuff is packed in a random assortment of boxes and bags I have either found in my room or gotten out of a dumpster. People have already left Rose, people very important to me. Kristen left this morning at 7 AM and I said my "goodbye" to her last night during the drunken girl time in my room. I'm horrible at saying goodbye, whether it be for a measly 3 months or forever. I realize we are not leaving forever, that it's only 3 months, that I may see her over break, that I will still talk to her but none the less Kristen leaving made the fact that we're all leaving hit hard. Driving away from Rose last night I started to cry thinking about all of the people here that mean something to me. Leaving Cincinnati was horrible when I came to Rose but there was more security in it. The majority of people who meant something to me in Cincinnati were all still in Cincinnati. Those close to me at Rose though are spread throughout the country. Being apart for 3 months from these people is so sad for me, but it's even sadder to think that some of the people who mean a lot to me are leaving forever.

I have gone through many phases during the course of this school year but I believe that I am coming out much better than I came in. My grades are adequate for me; well they were last time I checked but I have no idea what finals have done to them this quarter. I have made many friends that I know I can count on when I need someone, or when I just want to have fun. I am in a relationship with an amazing guy who means the world to me and I couldn't be happier. As strange as it may sound, being apart from my parents has made me closer to them. I think it's because going to college has made me a more mature person than I was at home. I'm uber excited for my room next year in Skinner and having an almost apartment to live in. I'm so ready to have my own life; to have my own place, to pay bills, to be responsible and independent.

For the next few months who knows where you'll find me. I plan on working a lot at Graeter's again to get out of the debt I'm sure I have put myself in. I'm hoping to get about 40 hours a week, even with making lots of random trips during the summer. I'm kidnapping the boy for the first week of break, well I don't know if it's kidnapping if he readily agrees to come. I hope to make a few trips to Terre Haute over the summer, maybe go to Minnesota, a little Pittsburgh, and of course the road trip which as of now stands:
Terre Haute - Kansas City, MO - Las Vegas, NV - San Diego, CA - Seattle, WA - Terre Haute
Long drive I know but it should be a blast if it ends up happening.

Leaving Rose is very bittersweet, as is almost anything that means something to me. As hard as it is to say goodbye to people it makes me happy to think about the fact that in order for me to be so sad, they must be something very important to me. The classes here may be challenging, and this school may suck sometimes but it's all worth it to me. Having these people to come back to after a bad day; having friends who will go buy me Smoothies and Resses when I refuse to leave my bed because I'm crying; drunken phone calls; corrupting the innocent, 11 o'clock songs, sleep deprived induced randomness: these are the things that makes Rose worth it to me.

posted by Anne @ 6:49 PM 0 comments

Finale

I related to far too many parts of the season finale of Grey's Anatomy tonight.

I cried, not had tears in my eyes, but actually cried.

As corny as it sounds, I felt pain and sadness in my heart while watching this show. I'm sure that's what ABC and the writers wanted so congratulations to them, they accomplished their goal.

posted by Anne @ 1:49 AM 2 comments

Update

So, I meant to do this last night before I went to bed but the internet at Rose crashed which kinda made that impossible. Unfortunately, the fact that I am writing this at 7:50 in the morning and I have class in about 10 minutes means that it is not going to be nearly as in depth as I had anticipated.
The point of this entry, just to state to anyone and everyone that reads this blog how amazingly happy I am. I had an amazing weekend and I'm having an amazing year (for the most part). =)

posted by Anne @ 7:51 AM 0 comments

50 Things You May Not Know About Me

This is what I spent my DE class doing. At least I was productive during class, unfortunately it wasn't related to DE at all. Anyway...

1. I won't sing if I think that people can hear me
2. I love the sound of cars driving on gravel roads
3. I love the smell of gasoline
4. I get along better with guys than girls
5. I love math
6. I love to build things
7. I hate the "getting there" stage
8. I am a procrastinating perfectionist
9. I wake up before my alarm goes off
10. I know what my last meal would be if I was on death row
11. I used to be addicted to Nickelodeon
12. I can out-burp a dinosaur
13. I like "little things"
14. The sexiest part of a guy is his back
15. My ultimate weakness is having my back kissed
16. I always wanted to be, but have never been, kissed in the rain
17. I run when I get pissed off
18. It's really hard to piss me off
19. I am a much more sexual person than I tend to present
20. I have only failed two tests in my life, and they were both curved
21. I won't watch a scary movie unless I am sleeping with someone that night
22. I'm not always forward, but I don't lie
23. I love to stand on my tiptoes when I am getting kissed
24. I don't believe in love at first sight
25. I love Navy uniforms
26. I can crack the code to a Master Lock
27. I tend to live more in the moment than in the future
28. I will instantly sacrafice myself for those I love
29. I love puzzles
30. I love thunderstorms
31. I hate pictures of myself
32. I think my nose is cute
33. I love OLD clothing (as in Victorian)
34. I taught myself how to read hieroglyphics
35. I love to rearrange my room constantly
36. I'm a little bit of a neat freak
37. I still sleep with a teddy bear
38. I used to think I was smart
39. I'm a very observant person
40. I wish I could spent all day in a bathrobe
41. I would kill to have permanent red hair
42. I would hate to be famous
43. I am probably only alive to provide comic relief
44. I don't always think before I speak
45. I am a very passionate person
46. I sometimes make cookies just to eat the dough
47. Memosas are my favorite drink
48. Practically every joint on my body cracks
49. I'm not very tickilish unless you know how to turn it on, in which case... yeah, basically I'm tickilish from head to toe
50. I hate it when people try to be someone that they aren't

posted by Anne @ 5:20 PM 3 comments