Update
I decided to change that last entry.
I don't know if I want to be in love.
Because it always ends in hurt. If you don't care then it can't hurt.
I wrote this entry and then walked into the other room and thought about it. It's not true, I do want to be in love. Despite the hurt, it's the most amazing feeling I've ever had in the entire world. I wouldn't trade it for anything and I regret feeling that way even for a second.
Results
"Baby, you have something more precious than diamonds: totally legit love."
As hard as things get it's worth it, and honestly, it isn't that big of a deal. I'm not willing to quit and give up because I know that if I were to make that decision I would regret it the next minute.
I just hope this feeling isn't only mine, that it's shared by the other person it matters to.
I thought of something last night before falling asleep, something that makes me extremely happy but I don't know if I feel comfortable writing in this. A realization that I didn't think I could come to without simply dreaming, by actually logically thinking about it.
I can't wait to get back to Terre Haute, not for the classes, obviously not for the smell, but to hug him and kiss him.
Break
It's break and I'm bitter, yippie.
I'll see everyone when I get back.
