SoakingIn

Sometimes, life just doesn't go as planned.
I guess it's how you deal with those things that matters, the things that in your wildest dreams you wished you didn't have to deal with.

I have experienced two extreme pains in my life, neither of which were physical.
The first, hurting someone that you love for selfish reasons.
The second, the worst, watching someone you love hurt themselves and knowing that you can do absolutely nothing about it. Being able to do nothing but say "I'm here" is the hardest and most painful thing I have experienced and it's been all too real for far too long.

posted by Anne @ 8:59 PM 1 comments

Addition

An Addition to the previous post...
I was fine, I was happy, then I got a message
and suddenly thought I was going to start crying.

Is that normal?

posted by Anne @ 6:43 PM 0 comments

Mexico

As weird as it may sound, I don't know if I want to talk to him while he's gone.
Which is strange, for me at least. I'm not the type of person that is usually ok with no contact. And it's not that I'm ok with it, it's more just apathy honestly.
Not because I'm mad or upset or anything.
But because having a 5 minute IM conversation only reminds me that he is gone and I can't actually talk to him.

posted by Anne @ 3:49 PM 1 comments